I love my life and I don't really get jealous of the good others have in their lives. I don't struggle with comparison or depression. I'm not really one to think, "Why them, God, and why not me?" Like I said, I really love my life. . . the goods, bads, uglies, pretties, and all the in-betweens.
Here's what I've observed about myself through this experiment:
- Me off my phone more = kids automatically off their phones more without me saying a word. It really is true they follow our example. Being off my phone more forces me to engage with those right in front of my face.
- There's something about the scrolling and image changing very quickly that I've noticed does something to my brain. I used to could sit and read for hours. About 3 months ago I found it so hard for me to concentrate on a book (which I love and consider to be one of my "happy places". I've found I've gotten my focus back. I'm less distracted.
- I'm living more in the moment and taking it all in. . . the sights, the smells, the facial expressions, all of it.
For example, today we were coming home from curling. Jon, Alec, and Ash were having a debate. Alec and Ash were arguing a point together. Jon had different views. I chimed in a few times saying I agreed with Jon, but mainly I listened. These are the things I took in.
- How articulate my children are.
- How they see logic and validity.
- How free they are to express their ideas to a man they adore.
- A loving father who welcomes good conversation and says, "It's okay to disagree. We can agree to disagree."
- Hanna resting her head under my arm and cuddled up next to me.
- How the things we've taught our children really do stick with them.
I could have been on Instagram posting our latest photos from curling. I could have been scrolling my Facebook feed. I could have been seeing what everyone else was up to on this Saturday. But look at all I would've missed. I would've missed life.
In fact, I've started to call my phone my memory snatcher. Don't get me wrong I love that I can take photos on my phone. I love that I can communicate especially through texts. I love that I can scroll or check on people or even share my life with people. . . if I want to.
But more than all these things I love being present. The present is truly a gift. Hopefully I will continue to remember this and not fall back into old habits.